Father's Day 2009
Awww, today is Eli's first Father's Day! It was also Averie's baptism and the day we all joined the church as a family then got to celebrate with those closest to us afterward. What a great day!!
I know today is a hard day for Eli. Tomorrow marks two years since Tommy passed away and in some ways it seems like forever but in some ways it seems like it was just a couple weeks ago. I know Eli has a lot of regrets about his dad and his passing and it makes me hurt for him because there is absoultely nothing I can do to fix it.
We had a conversation one time about regrets. My stance on it is that I have no regets in my life. I think that every single decision I've made in my life was the right decision at that exact moment - maybe not right for the long term or in my best interest - but I chose to do it and for that reason it was right at that moment. The decisions I've made that turned out to be not good choices are just opportunities that I have learned from (hopefully) but right or wrong they have all shaped me in to who I am today. Yes, there are many, many choices that I made that looking back on now were not the smartest and could have either gotten me killed or seriously ruined my life, but nonetheless (I love that word) they are my decisions and I have to live with and learn from those. Therefore, I have no regrets because I truly believe everything happens for a reason and to regret it and want to change it is kinda like the whole butterfly effect thing - how different would your life be if you could go back and change things?
But Eli doesn't feel that way. I think his biggest regret is that he didn't spend more time with Tommy in the hopsital room the night he died or do more to save his life. But what he doesn't realize is that there is NOTHING more he could have done. God needed Tommy in Heaven obviously more than we needed him here on earth, and although we don't know why we just have to believe that is in His plan for us. So, that being said, today was a happy and sad day for my wonderful husband/Averie's wonderful daddy.
Averie did so good during the service today. My mom, dad, sister, brother, Eli's brother and his wife, and Susan and Dick were all there with us and got to see this special moment in Averie's life. I am so proud of her and so happy that she is God's child. We then went back to Mom & Dad's house for a special pink and brown polka dot brunch and fellowship with our family and friends. It was a wonderful, wonderful day!
The cake that started it all
Daddy's Girl - just baptized!.jpg)
The beautiful and thoughtful snowglobe from Uncle Matt and Aunt Heather - engraved with her name and a precious prayer on the cross.
Of course my child is accessorized - the precious bracelt from Nana and Granddaddy.
Sweet book and lamb from Susan and Dick.
Dear Eli/Daddy:
This time last year we had just found out you were going to be a daddy. You were so excited and supported Mommy for 9 whole months and then when the big day(s) came for little A's arrival - you were the one that got everyone through and stayed strong when it got tough. The very moment she came into the world both of our lives were changed forever in that instant and neither one of us had ever experienced love like that of a parent. It absouletly melts my heart to see you with her and I love you in a whole new and unexpected way. I see you as more of a man now (not that you weren't before...) because you are the protector and caretaker of our little family and I know that you would literally die before you let something happen to our beautiful little daughter. I guess I see this new side of you now because I always thought I could take care of myself but now that I am a mother I know that you are the rock my foundation is built upon. I am so proud of the way you nuture Averie, how you are so patient and kind and gentle and you love to teach her new things and you will do or say anthing just to get her to smile. I can tell by the way she looks at you when you walk into the room that she thinks you are pretty cool and that we have a lifetime of beautiful memories to make as we raise this precious gift that God has given us. Thank you for being you and loving us and we can't wait to celebrate Father's Day every year because we have the best Daddy in the world!
Love you,
The A's!
I know today is a hard day for Eli. Tomorrow marks two years since Tommy passed away and in some ways it seems like forever but in some ways it seems like it was just a couple weeks ago. I know Eli has a lot of regrets about his dad and his passing and it makes me hurt for him because there is absoultely nothing I can do to fix it.
We had a conversation one time about regrets. My stance on it is that I have no regets in my life. I think that every single decision I've made in my life was the right decision at that exact moment - maybe not right for the long term or in my best interest - but I chose to do it and for that reason it was right at that moment. The decisions I've made that turned out to be not good choices are just opportunities that I have learned from (hopefully) but right or wrong they have all shaped me in to who I am today. Yes, there are many, many choices that I made that looking back on now were not the smartest and could have either gotten me killed or seriously ruined my life, but nonetheless (I love that word) they are my decisions and I have to live with and learn from those. Therefore, I have no regrets because I truly believe everything happens for a reason and to regret it and want to change it is kinda like the whole butterfly effect thing - how different would your life be if you could go back and change things?
But Eli doesn't feel that way. I think his biggest regret is that he didn't spend more time with Tommy in the hopsital room the night he died or do more to save his life. But what he doesn't realize is that there is NOTHING more he could have done. God needed Tommy in Heaven obviously more than we needed him here on earth, and although we don't know why we just have to believe that is in His plan for us. So, that being said, today was a happy and sad day for my wonderful husband/Averie's wonderful daddy.
Averie did so good during the service today. My mom, dad, sister, brother, Eli's brother and his wife, and Susan and Dick were all there with us and got to see this special moment in Averie's life. I am so proud of her and so happy that she is God's child. We then went back to Mom & Dad's house for a special pink and brown polka dot brunch and fellowship with our family and friends. It was a wonderful, wonderful day!
The cake that started it all
Daddy's Girl - just baptized!
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The beautiful and thoughtful snowglobe from Uncle Matt and Aunt Heather - engraved with her name and a precious prayer on the cross.
Of course my child is accessorized - the precious bracelt from Nana and Granddaddy.
Sweet book and lamb from Susan and Dick.
Dear Eli/Daddy:
This time last year we had just found out you were going to be a daddy. You were so excited and supported Mommy for 9 whole months and then when the big day(s) came for little A's arrival - you were the one that got everyone through and stayed strong when it got tough. The very moment she came into the world both of our lives were changed forever in that instant and neither one of us had ever experienced love like that of a parent. It absouletly melts my heart to see you with her and I love you in a whole new and unexpected way. I see you as more of a man now (not that you weren't before...) because you are the protector and caretaker of our little family and I know that you would literally die before you let something happen to our beautiful little daughter. I guess I see this new side of you now because I always thought I could take care of myself but now that I am a mother I know that you are the rock my foundation is built upon. I am so proud of the way you nuture Averie, how you are so patient and kind and gentle and you love to teach her new things and you will do or say anthing just to get her to smile. I can tell by the way she looks at you when you walk into the room that she thinks you are pretty cool and that we have a lifetime of beautiful memories to make as we raise this precious gift that God has given us. Thank you for being you and loving us and we can't wait to celebrate Father's Day every year because we have the best Daddy in the world!
Love you,
The A's!
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